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{ Ninety Eight }

Tuesday, September 10, 2013 | 3:53 PM | 0 Comment(s)

And just like that, 1 year has gone by since my last post... There were a lot of ups and downs in the past year... A lot of things happened. One thing that remained the same are the people who's still in my life with an exception of a few new comers.

So here's a quick recap on the things that happened since the year began.

I was on a vacation for a week in January. Went on a nice cruise with the boyfriend and his siblings. Let me add, I've never been on a luxurious cruise before so it was quite interesting. In a good way of course! We were able to attend a lot of fun and eventful shows while enjoying and relaxing our days on the ship. Needless to say, the trip felt short... As all vacations tend to feel like it could have lasted a bit longer... :P We also got to wine and dine everyday, it was definitely the life. Ha.

Finally finished classes in May... Without a doubt, I haven't really found a real job in replacement to my current jobs... But it does feel great to know that I've come so far.

So many happy and sad feelings... Agree to disagree. I'm right and you're wrong! Not enough quality time spent... I guess it's hard because we're not in the same state. Yes, New York isn't all that far but still, it's also not next door. We try to make the best of it. Most of the time I can't complain but other times I feel like, has it really come to this...? We use to argue about petty things, occasionally we still do but not as frequent. We'd argue about League of Legends because he'd spend too much time on it. When he's playing that game, there's no means of any attention for me at all. He get's so sucked into it and trying to focus so hard that I pretty much vanish, even though I'm right in front of him on Skype. It's quite frustrating and tiresome to always argue about the same nonsense... For awhile, I kind of just ignored it but now when I think about it, I get so angry because nothing really changed... Even after we've tried to have a heart to heart about the situation... Somehow it always end up going back to the beginning... Where all hell broke loose... I just don't want to deal with it anymore. I want him to want to change and see how it's affecting us. After all, we've already talked about it and my feelings are out there about the matter, it's completely up to him to decide how to manage and approach it. I'm only human and I can only withstand so much. I don't want to be the one who's always trying and seeing that things aren't the same... This distant feeling is all too familiar... We both love each other but how much of that is it where we're in love with each other... I think it's the lack of attention that I'm not receiving is making me doubt us...

Change... It's scary.

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