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{ Ninety Seven }

Friday, September 21, 2012 | 9:43 PM | 0 Comment(s)

I think I just hit my ultimate low in life... I'm so depressed thinking about it... I can't help but shed tears because I'm a mess... I don't have my life together... Yes, there are others out there in this world who are in my situation but it has never hit me like this before... I'm just realizing that I will be done with college and will be getting my associates degree soon and what am I going to do with it? I have no freaking idea... It's as if I just went to school just because and I have nothing to show for it... It's quite depressing... I'm going to end up with no career, like many people in this world... I really DON'T want to fall into that category... It's so embarrassing thinking about it and it's quite shameful even sharing it on here... :\ But I don't know where to go to with this... This place is like my own little secret portal... Judgement free zone. Luckily I don't have many or if any viewers at all reading this... Right now I cannot handle any criticism, even if they are constructive...

I envy my brother and Eddie... I'm proud of them for finishing school and landing a job... I must say, I'm a bit jealous because I feel like I'm in this pitch black hole with no direction... I can't say enough of this... FML... Seriously though... There's no better way to describe how I feel but to say FML... I really feel like I suck... I'm lucky to have them in my life, despite the way I feel about myself, my brother knew how to make me laugh and forget about my problems just for one brief moment... Eddie, being the silly loving boyfriend that he is, he knew exactly the silliness that'll get to me. :) Now, if only life was that simple... If only you can just live off jokes and shit will just fall into place. *Sigh* Help...?

*Sigh* I need to do a lot of work... Give me a sign because I can use all the strength that I can get... Point me in the right direction. :|

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