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{ Fifty One }

Tuesday, December 9, 2008 | 6:24 AM | 0 Comment(s)

I feel like my life span shortens with each passing day because I'm stressing over shit that is not my problem but their's... I'm always caught in the middle. Why can't you guys just let me live for a little? Don't I deserve some breathing space? It's ridiculous how much they don't care... Maybe no one would be in this mess if they knew how to be an adult instead of trying to make me grow up faster. Stop making me responsible for shit that doesn't even involve me. I'm so tired of everything... Sometimes I don't even want to wake up in the morning because I feel like reality is worse than hell... At least we won't be financially challenged and there is a possibility of getting away from you unreasonable fools. Why should I work so hard when I can't even enjoy the moment? It's not worth it, nothing is worth me crying over...

{ Fifty }

Wednesday, November 26, 2008 | 7:31 PM | 0 Comment(s)

When the world comes to a complete halt, why don't people come to realization that their actions not only hurt themselves but the people around them as well? Yeah, shit happens... But how many times can one person make the same mistake over and over again? Now that's just stupidity. I guess the saying is true, "you don't use it, you lose it". So it seems, people are just neclecting their brains, not putting it to use, becoming more and more unreasonable. It's so frustrating seeing things happen and not being capable of doing anything about it. Why would they let this happen? You would think they have learned their lesson but unforturnately, they're not smart enough or just want to ignore the fact that nothing good could ever come from it. I'm saddened by all of this because I feel helpless... I want to be that person to make the change but how can I voice my opinion when their mind is clouded with unnecessary crap? They're so foolish to believe that their luck would change and come around... That is never the case so why push it? And people wonder why we're so disfunctional.

{ Forty Nine }

Saturday, November 8, 2008 | 8:53 PM | 0 Comment(s)

BULLSHiT.

Why do we even try? We try even though we know that we're just being used and when they think we're no longer any use to them, they just abandon us. Fuckers...

{ Forty Eight }

Wednesday, October 15, 2008 | 4:32 AM | 0 Comment(s)

Tuesdays are always my worse days... Class, work, then tons of cramming for English and psychology class... Yeah... I should have done it over the weekend but I didn't. I like to just relax and enjoy my day off from work and school but when I do, do that, I feel like I'm falling behind... =T Feels like there's no winning for me. =X It'll get easier, right?

Taking it slow...

Baby steps.

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I'm a bit saddened that I'm being doubted... Questioned about thing's that has been answered many times. Why does it matter if there is a possibility that someone out there is better when I don't care for no one but you? You question me because you need reassurance... Have you questioned yourself? I'm feared by the answer but I'm not going to stop you from making your choice. Nothing is forced... So don't feel like you're being suffocated... All of this is making me have doubts, not about you but about me... It makes me wonder... Am I honestly good enough for you? Sometimes I feel as if all I'm doing is dragging you down and pulling you through the mudd with me... This can't be healthy...

Just when I thought I'm all cried out, more tears start to stream from my eyes and down my cheeks...

I love you for who you are, not for what you have or can get. There's no questions about that you're the only one for me...

Love me for me because that's the only person I know how to be...

I stopped searching when I met you...

{ Forty Seven }

Friday, October 10, 2008 | 2:07 AM | 0 Comment(s)

I fall in love with you all over again with just one smile. <3

{ Forty Six }

Sunday, October 5, 2008 | 8:25 PM | 0 Comment(s)

Live for today because tomorrow is not guaranteed.

Thoughts on pause.

{ Forty Five }

Friday, October 3, 2008 | 5:41 AM | 0 Comment(s)

Expectations? I have none. Why would I have any? That's just setting myself up to get disappointed. I'm not sure I can handle it. Being let down so many times sure does suck. (: Disappointment is a total bitch. Yup. Although I may not have any expectations, what is expected of/from me? What do I have to bring to the table to prove myself? Do I need a paper that says I'm worthy of your acceptance? Maybe a well paying job? Or what if I dyed my hair purple, would it make a difference? What would you be thinking? How would you react? What are you thinking now? I'm just confused... I don't know what to do, I'm not sure if I know anything as of right now. Everything is a blur. I just need someone to guide me through, point me in a direction that I should be heading towards. A guiding light? A sign? I don't know, something~! Anything...?

No work or class tomorrow, finally some "me" time. Do I really need it?

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