I'm so excited! :D I mailed out the goodies to him Mark. <33 I hope he gets it soon. :3 I want him to enjoy it as much as I did putting it together. :PP Just thinking about his reaction makes me happy and smile. :]] He's cute. <3 He was really excited for me to mail it out too. Haha. xP The damn wait. I want him to get it already! Sharing some things that I enjoy, I hope he likes it just as much or more. :D I can deal with either. ;]

So sleepy... I didn't get enough sleep last night. Tried to take a power nap in my car before class and it didn't go so well. :[ I tried getting some zZz's when I got home... Double fail... Brother called after I fell asleep for 30 minutes ish cause he needed me to pick him up at the station so he can use the car... Haven't gone back to sleep since... I'm waiting for Babe <3 to wake up from his nap so we can skype for a bit before I sleep for the night. :P My night isn't complete if I don't get to see his face. :3 I shall suck it up for a bit longer because it'll be worth it in the end. <3 I will get a move on and brush and then continue waiting. :PP At least I'll be that must closer to sleeping when we finish. :) Never expect the unexpected because it's very random. Especially when it's that thing called Love. It's been awhile since I last felt this way... The happiness about another person. The uncontrollable excitement with just one thought. :) I've been out of the loop for awhile. Almost forgot what this feeling felt like. It's amazing. <3 I'm not saying I'm in love because it's way too soon to be at that stage right now and there's really no rushing it. But what I know for certain is that I feel that joy whenever I see his face and hear his voice. <3 I always find it surprising what one person can do to make my world go round. The feeling of that void being filled with such sweetness and laughter. It's just simply fantastic. :]

No matter the distance, happiness and "love" will somehow find it's way to you.

I truly thought to myself that I wouldn't let this happen again but I guess no matter how great the distance between us is, feelings just can't be controlled just because there's so many miles between us. It takes two to tango. As cliche as that may sound, it's so true. Every relationship requires work from both ends, if only one person is putting in all the effort, the relationship will go sour very quickly... There would be no point in being in a relationship because one cannot be that selfish and only lookout for their own well being. With distance thrown into the mix, it does take a lot more effort to make it work because we're limited in doing things. We can make the best out of everything that we can until the time comes where that distance just disappears. :) Just have to be more optimistic and see the glass as half full, rather than it being half empty. :3

Take chances and risks because life is too short to play it safe. Obviously that doesn't mean to be stupid. There are certain things that just isn't worth risking but there's plenty out there to see. Just gotta be smart about it and trust your instincts. :) You can say I'm a risk taker, I'm not really one who usually follows the rules by the book. :P I like to do what I will and what makes me happy, even if others find it foolish. I am who I am because of what I do and how I control my life. I will not stop being me just because a few rotten apples disapprove. :)

I'm happy. <3 Okay, so I want to bang this out and get it over with. It's been on my mind lately and I've been putting it off. I am finally taking the time to blog it down before I sleep. :P

As if it being as late as it was, wasn't a good enough reason for me to just fall sleep and get it over with. Instead I stayed laying in bed, tossing and turning thinking about "feelings"... These feelings that we humans have are a pain in the butt! Seriously... It's even worst when it comes to girls... Guys take it so lightly, sometimes they act as if it doesn't even exist... But not girls... No sir. They hold onto their feelings for dear life. It's a bit mind boggling when you really think about it... Girls are always talking and sharing their feelings whereas the guys are a complete different story. They want nothing to do with it. It's as if showing feelings is a sign of weakness... =_=" If you're a real man, like most men claim to be, you should be able to express your feelings, no matter the outcome. Who really cares what others think or might say because of it, they are the ones that doesn't matter. :)

Guys are built differently and I can sympathize with that but honestly... How hard is it to take that extra step to just let your guard down for once and try to understand the girl's feelings...? Yeah, girls are complicated and everything we do doesn't make sense but as a guy, taking that extra second to ask the girl how she's doing and feeling, and just talking to her makes a big difference! Guys don't know this because they don't do it... But if they actually did do it, the girls would be really appreciative and just the littlest things makes her have a whole new perception. Things can get better. ;] Just saying. :3

I'm not trying to attack the guys. I do understand that sometimes they just want to be left alone and girls just doesn't understand that. They think that nagging their man would make matters better... Sometimes girls are bigger fools than guys. When a guy says he wants to be left alone, he means it. When a girl says she wants to be left alone, it's the opposite... It's basic knowledge that this is how it goes. But most girls don't see it that way. They think that if they keep poking, something will come out or happen... NOTHING happens except for annoyance and anger... I know because I've been put in both of these situations and I'm sure most have. It's quite common. We just have to learn from it and hope to not do it again.

So... What happens when both shows signs of feelings towards each other? Good thing, right? Absolutely. :) But not when someone is left hanging after a little while... They act as if the other didn't mean anything to them. Somewhat vanish and disappear from the other's life... What happens now? Should one continue to pursue the other? Or just leave it be? If they've decided to just poof in thin air, maybe it's best to leave it as is... Oh dear life... Why must you be so complicated?

I want to be numb... It's a bit draining to constantly give and be so hopeful... Can I be a robot for a day and just not feel anything? :3 Back home once again. So cold... I miss California and my boys. 10 days that we were there went by quick. We were back at the airport before we knew it. Spent Christmas, new years eve, new years, and my birthday with them. It was more than worth it. Couldn't have asked for more. :) I can't wait to see them again. :) Already trying to plan something out again. Haha. I really did have a fantastic time. Johnson's family was so friendly and welcomed my brother and I into their home with open arms and warm hearts. I am truly blessed to have met and have these people in my life. They're the reason why I wake up to a good morning. :) TOMORROW! All done packing. :D Well, almost. Going to finish tomorrow after I get ready. :) I'm excited. Finally get to see Johnson. About time. LOL. :] I finally got my hair trimmed and got straight bangs. :P Now I look like a dumpling but a cute one at that. Haha. ;] I look like a little girl... Oh well. :3 S'all good. :) It'll grow back. ^^

So I'm leaving for Sacramento tomorrow! WOOO!!! I'm so excited. Going to be one of the best holidays well spent. :) Not quite sure what to pack but I'm only going to be gone for one week and some change so I shouldn't over pack. :) Or at least I will try. Haha.

No plans tonight except to relax. So tired from last night. Seven straight games of bowling cause Tommy had to leave... His mum forgot her keys. :\ My hand was getting swollen but it doesn't hurt now. :) I do want to watch a movie... We'll see how I feel later. Such a silly goose... Getting all sad over nothing... *Sigh*

I don't want to think about you anymore... It's been way too long since we last talked and yet you still cross my mind...

What is this world coming to? How did we end up this way? We're not friends... Good times wasted... I just want to forget about you and what we once had because it's not doing me any good. Reminiscing about the past... For what? So much time has gone by... You've walked out of my life with ease but I can't seem to forget... Just go away... :\ I truly thought we'd remain friends and that's what bothers me most... I don't care that you've moved on and have someone else but what happened to that friendship that we said we'd keep? How did you just throw it away and never looked back? People are just cruel... What an eye opener... Something I wish I didn't have to ever witness... :\ I hope you're happy.
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